2018 has been everything what I was hoping it not to be. It’s been sucky in almost every way right from the beginning. The only company I loved working for got shut down. I miss the people, the culture, the work and all the hustle too. Sometimes I feel too many things are happening and sometimes nothing is happening at all. It is crazy. Life is so bloody busy – So freaking busy! Days fly by and you don’t realise all the time you have lost just keeping track of things, doing things, meeting people, being around people all the time that you loose your own thing. There is no time for yourself, there is no time for actual relationships because there are so many bloody formalities that you need to do, there are things that people expect from you, there is money that you need to make, people to please and tons of other things to do to live in this fucking stupid society that you don’t actually get time for what matters – you don’t get time for yourself, for people you love. You are so busy living for other people that you forget that you have a life of your own. There are things that you need to do for yourself too, things that make you happy not necessarily others. Why do we hesitate then? Why do we give up on ourselves or our relationships for others? They may be your near and dear ones, but no one is going to fix your life/ relationships for you. Knowing all this why do we still put others first and ourselves later? We know our happiness is in our hands, why do we still let it take a backseat for others? I feel really selfish while typing this, but honestly what are the options? What time will be the right time to realise enough is enough and you need to get ‘YOUR’ life right without giving zero fucks. Till when do you put others first and yourself later? What amount of damage is enough to realise you have fucked up!
This post is really special because it’s my husband’s (Sarthak) birthday. (Happy birthday!!). So I thought i’ll share a few thoughts right here. I love him for many reasons but mostly because he is the most caring person I know. He is playful and energetic and makes sure every single day is well spent. He makes me feel pretty and laughs at my stupid habits. Some of them are really stupid, I am very well aware. So this one counts a lot.
I love the fact that he lets me be me and encourages my independence. I love him because when we argue – I can be unhappy for a extended period of time but he cant. He is also quick to forgive which is absolutely love about him. Some days I really feel I scored a jackpot marrying him. I think we make a great team. I hope you know how much you mean to me and Im glad we are stuck together! Haha. Happy Birthday Sarthak. I love you!