• Musings

    How does it feel like to be an introvert/ ambivert?

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    well, if you ask me – it doesn’t feel very bad. but here are few things that i’d like to share.

    • no one is a 100% introvert. it’s usually like a 50-50 ratio, in some, introvert ratio is slightly higher, like around 60-70%.
    • i usually speak on topics that interests me.
    • i am not rude, i just need my own private space. i need time to think and be back.
    • i may not be a very good talker, but i am a good listener. i may not be the life of the party, but if you need someone to share something important –i am there!
    • people usually trust me more for not revealing their secret ( which is true with most introverts)
    • i like the fact that i am very self motivated. i don’t need constant flow of people around me to feel good.
    • i feel lonely when i am surrounded by people who don’t understand me.
    • i don’t get impressed by social, political or career status of anybody.
    • i like interacting with people – it makes me feel happy and i feel confident about myself. but too much of it is really exhausting for me.
    • i love day dreaming
    • i like listening to music, drawing, arts in general.
    • i like to sit quietly and watch a movie or research something that interests me.
    • it sometimes worries me that i find it difficult to fit in with everyone else and just mingle.
    • i feel judged. a lot.
    • i have a strong desire for social bonds. very less though. basically people who can understand me.
    • sometimes i feel tired in the crowd. however, doing an artwork by myself – refreshes me.

    XX

  • Musings

    2014 – bring it on!

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    happy new year!

    2013 has been a beautiful and rough year in many ways. great year it was and i’m glad it’s over! there were some crazy ups and downs in 2013 and it has taught me many things. i’ve already mentioned one of my previous posts how i’ve grown and changed in the past year. but yeah, one of the best things i’ve learned is to stay happy in every situation and never let negativity sneak in your happy world. it’s not worth to spend even a minute being sad or upset about the crap you can’t change.

    also, everyone around me has been talking about new year resolutions, i dnt think i can make one. and in case i do, im pretty sure it wont work. most of the things don’t work for me when i plan them. so no! but there are few things that i expect myself to do this year. in 2014, i want to have more time for myself and give more time to my hobbies ( probably try taking classes!) i live in a beautiful city with my brother and a good job – but i don’t want to be so into it that i forget i have other talents too.

    i want to be regular with exercising (20 mins daily). i want to wake early in the morning ( i literally struggle everyday) so that i reach work on time. i want to click more pictures and experiment more with my diana dreamer. i want to learn sewing, swimming and cooking. i want to be less crazy about the cleanliness in the house ( some people will be really glad if that happens).

    i want to make more friends and learn to express myself more. there are parts of my personality that i want to work on. but most importantly, i want to be a good human being, a happy person. i don’t want to feel less of myself in anyway. i have my own way of doing things and that doesn’t mean i am any less, right? that’s pretty much about it!

    P.S – i love the new Sherlock season! any fans?

    xx