All eyes on you.

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The last time I cried was when I was feeling really vulnerable. It was the third time I had broken down in past 6 months. Most of the times it has been because of me rather than anyone else.  I have always been an introvert and I find it really hard when I’m forced something to do just because other people expect it out of me. I think I’m fairly independent and I don’t like to depend on anyone for anything and I am a happy person in general. I like my freedom and space more than anything else and when I feel these things are slipping away I get really cranky. People always have this one problem with me that I don’t do enough and they are not wrong. I do actually and I do care but I suck at expressing. It can be a hard thing to deal with. I don’t know how to explain this, but for instance if someone is sick, I will do everything to make them feel comfortable, I’ll also ask them how they are but I cant keep asking all the time, like people do in general. I mean you are sick, you will take time to be ok and to ask again and again won’t help, but instead helping will help. Isn’t it the actual work that counts?  I think I’m better at backend work in relationships rather than front end. I don’t know if you get it. I mean I am all in for doing the actual work but I’m just not very good at presenting or expressing and it’s mistaken for the fact that I don’t care. I can’t say I did this or I did that – if someone has to see, they will see.

That is one of the reasons I’m not the most likeable person on the earth. I feel relationships should be easy going, they shouldn’t feel like a burden – something you need to maintain or feel the need to please someone. The moment it turns like that – it’s all formal and fake for me honestly (except for special occasions like birthdays and stuff obviously). I know this is not the best way to show that you care, but I can’t help it. For people who know me well, know that I do care and I will be there when they need me. I just don’t expect people to expect that I will please them or keep asking them things just for the sake of it, because I won’t and I honestly don’t feel it’s wrong I am in no way promoting that you don’t do anything nice or special for anyone ever. But on daily basis, isn’t it stressful? And I don’t expect it for myself too. This is the story of my life right now, struggling between expectations are reality in different spheres of life. I don’t know what to do about it yet, but hoping to find a way soon.

Music Post – January 2018! :)

Finally a music post, It’s been coming from a long time and here it is. I have been listening to some amazing music and I’m going to share songs I like the most. My source of good music remains the same, most of it comes out of tv shows and my brother also recommends amazing music. Shazam is of course on top of my list, I start it as soon as something catches my attention. I hope you like this music!

  • The Revivalists – Wish I knew you.    //   I love so many things about this song. The guitar, the sax, the organ and the video! Such a cool song. 🙂

  •  Chris Norman & Suzi Quatro – Stumblin’ In    //    This was recommended by my brother. I loved it the first time I heard it. It’s one of those old classics which never gets old! So good!

  • Blitzen Trapper – Furr       //     Another one I heard from my brother. 🙂

  • Blitzen Trapper – Man of constant sorrow      //     I am big Fargo fan. I don’t know why people don’t like it as much. I think it’s a slow but a great show! Heard the cover of Man of constant sorrow on the show, loved it. There are so many covers of this song. I think this one is my favorite. This song got really popular from O Bother, where art thou? For those who don’t know, here is the link to the original song by Soggy Bottom Boys!

  • Graham Coxon – Walking all day    //   I recently saw this show and the music is great. This is my favorite song from the show, I also like this one a lot though. I can’t really say anything about the show. I had no opinions. I got me depressed for a while, then I saw it again because my husband wanted to watch it and I loved it the second time. So weird.

Until next time! 🙂

Gamiss Valentines Day Sale

Gamiss is a new website I’ve started working for and I am really impressed with their sales for Valentines Day 2018. I thought of buying some valentines day gifts but then I am always more gravitated towards clothes, so I thought I’ll skip the gifts bit.

Even though I’m not someone who is a valentine’s day kind of a person but their sales are extremely tempting. People mostly tend to wear dresses, but I thought I will switch things up a little bit by using red bag or may be a red lipstick. I have made a wishlist, if you are interested to shop for yourself or your loved ones, you can shop these looks by clicking on the photos.

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My Favourites from Rosegal Valentines Day Sale

Online store Rosegal has stocked their collection with amazing options for valentines gifts this year. Being a vintage lover, I could find some amazing items right from 70s fashion super cute jumpsuits to breezy linen dresses and wrap tops.   I have worked with Rosegal just once before and I really liked the bag I ordered from there and I keep checking deals for Rosegal Valentines gifts because you can find some really amazing stuff at affordable prices. I am posting some items here that caught my eye! Don’t forget to check out their store, I am sure you will find plenty of amazing stuff, like I did!

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Autumn Corduroy Retro Jacket

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V Neck Striped Casual Blouse

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Faux Suede Zip Up A Line Skirt

See best of best valentine gift 2018 on www.rosegal.com

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